Monthly Archives: September 2015

Loving someone is never that easy

Two days ago,I hanged out with two girls of mine. We talked, laughed, and mostly we talked about our love life.Pick one of quote from Queen Elizabeth that i adore so much, adore is not suit word, i mean quote that i so agree. “Grief is the price that we have to pay for love”. And i couldn’t more agree with what she said, I’ve listened so many stories about love. If i can summary all of those stories, Love really change people, Love really hurt feeling, Love really put a tough girl or boy fell really down, Love even change people from pessimist into optimist person. The effect that happen because of love is really real.

Past years before, i didn’t really sure that i will fall deep down with someone, i always tell myself, don’t put yourself into trouble by falling in love, because from what i heard before, loving someone was that really hard.

2 or 3 friends couldn’t continue their relationship because they worshipped different God

some my friends ended their love life even they already hold on for 3 years, 4 years because there were third pary join in their  relationship.

the others broke up because they lose theirselves into their ego.

It only some cases that i got from what i hear.

Now, after 5 years i spent myself alone “single”, i can say, finally i get someone that really change how my life works.

Last year, I thought that from all of my friends i would be a woman who will married late. I was not really put myself into love life, for me love was only something that make you shy,giggle when you meet someone that you like. I still remember, i was heading my home while i was thinking, I really need someone for lean on. As woman i can do everything by myself. But there was a moment i was really sad, i cried when i rode my bike home I was so tired at that time, no one to tell with all of my problems, i cried a lot and prayed ” i really need someone in my life, someone that i can angry with, cry with, someone who can i rely on. I wish there is someone who can make my life easier tho”.

And February 2015 i met him, Mr. Gumelar. In march, he asked me if i want to be his girlfriend or not. And now we have a superb day to day togethe 🙂

I just want to say , thank you God to bring him to me (it sounds maybe so cheesy and so drama) but that’s what i feel right now). I have someone for me to rely on, someone who love me, and do his best to bring joyfulness to me.

But, Loving someone is really not that easy, 7 months iam in relationship, so many lessons that i learn that totally change my life.

Why i call it “lesson” ? because in the beginning it was so hard for me. I learn that i have to understand that Mr.Gumelar not kind of chat-person,he will only text me five times but if  get lucky, he can text for  maybe a quarter of his time per day. I learn that i have to really give him more more space for his fetish (his fetish ai his job), at the beginning he always that busy, i always angry with him, because i felt that he didnt have time for us. Crying was my activity that i did at that time. I learned so hard in this subject that i called “love someone right” .Understand people is really hard task. like seriously.

why it can be so hard ?

the reason is simply because i love him so.

I can be fucking ignorance person, really didn’t care with the others, but when it comes to him to us.

i just can’t.

Even loving him is not that easy, i still want to love him even more, Mr.Gumelar.

I’ve decided that loving someone is never that easy because there are so many things you should match each other.  Balancing this, balancing that.

Somehow those kind of thing make people horrible,sad, cry but like what i put in the beginning,

Grief is the price we have to pay for love, for someone that we love. put ourself in unbearable situation, but still try to stand together in there, because it more more easier to understand our partner that to lose them.

Loving you is not easy, but that what i need every single day. (cheesy but don’t care) :*



Everyone must respect people seriously

Like seriously,

Respect the others so serious, put your feet on their shoes.

Some people always told me that we, as human should respect people, understand their ways.

i couldnt more agree. but the problem is THEY DON’T REALLY RESPECT SERIOUSLY.

or the problem is located in how we define respect.

I write this kind of blog, because lately i feel that i am not being respected, for my habit, decision.

I have an habit that maybe for some people it sounds so expensive, so fancy, so wasted-money.

yeah , i have my own “sanctuary”, it is at starbucks only at paragon mall. only in there.

I don’t know from when this kind of fancy,expesive, wasted-money habit came up.

But whenever i feel so alone, i drag my self to there.

first thing first.

i want to bold this kind,

am i so rich so i can afford drink sbux almost everyday?

the answer is totally not~

i always save my money, i manage them for sbux because i know i so enjoy to work in that place.

do i want to look so fancy by hang out in sbux?

iam sorry, the answer is totally not.

The problem is that place is STARBUCKS. coffee shop that closely by high brand.

so when i went there, people like “so fancy, so rich”

“why don’t you just stay at home? you could save your money”

thank you i’ll take your notes.

but honestly, if i can. i will

but this is my habit, i can full put my focus when i put my ass in there,

if people ask me “why”

iam sorry darling, i don’t have any reason except “i enjoy being there alone”.

That’s what i learn, everyone has their habit, decision, that maybe for the others looks and sounds so disgusting, ridicolous, rich, wasted-money.

Some women have habit shopping.

some people will judge them by so materialistic?

How if behind the reason they have that kind of habit because they have a hectic job, that make them so depressed every day, and their cure is shopping ?

can people still call them materialistic?

I don’t think so.

Let’s have a big respecting attitude 🙂

If there’s an habit or decision that people make, and it doesn’t suit your perception it doesn’t mean that people is bad.

Look deep down on their own reason.